The threads on my apron strings are getting more and more frayed I am sorry to report. I keep trying and trying to reinforce those threads, but...that don't work!!
Seth came and told me on Tuesday that he had been invited on an all expenses paid trip to Las Vegas with a friend and her parents. They were leaving Friday (today). While I was really excited for him, I was also sad...The biggest place I have taken him I guess was Disney World. I was a single mom for several years up until 4 years ago. I told him Vegas might trump Mickey Mouse! He said no, Disney is still his favorite place of a million dreams. Seth has never flown before...
So...I sort of put it out of my mind cos' that's what I do when I worry about things, I just don't let myself think about them. Then yesterday I thought Dear Heaven!! He is leaving in the morning for Las Vegas......without me!!! I sort of went into some sort of tail spin mode called and asked him if he had clothes washed, suitcase out, etc. Yes, mom, it is all under control.
I come home look in the washer and there are about 2 shirts, one pair of underwear and some jeans. NOT ENOUGH! So, I start washing and pulling stuff together and just really trying to occupy my brain so I still don't have to think about him being on a plane...in the air....WITHOUT ME, after all, I have always been there to keep him safe, and kiss his boo boos and brush his hair out of his eyes and watch out for mean people. Always....
I called the family he is going with last night and spoke with Phil, (the dad) whom Seth is crazy about. He gave me the itinerary, staying at Ceasar's Palace in a suite, eating at Palazzio tonight, shopping tomorrow, eating at Nobu tomorrow night, third row seats to see Chelsea Handler, VIP passes, whatever on Sunday. I WANT TO GO!!! He will have a blast!! He is 19, he is grown, he is pulling away....I am STILL hanging on his leg!
So this morning he gets up at 5:00. I set my alarm too. I get up and he is in the kitchen and I ask "are you up?" DUH!! Yes, mom. He gets in the shower and I sit on th couch and wonder how in the world he got this big!! How did this happen!! He gets out of the shower and I am asking him, did you pack this, did you pack that, did you get your phone charger, your flip flops, your billfold, your toothbrush, your razor? Please shave Seth!! Yes, mom. He kisses me goodbye, tells me he loves me and....he drives away....WITHOUT ME!!
I just sat down and cried like a baby! I do not do the letting go well at all!!! NOT AT ALL!!!
He texts me when he gets on the plane and says, "This is the smallest plane I have ever seen."
CRAP, (I think)!! So I text back and say, "how many seats on either side of the aisle?" Two he says, this is a 50 passenger plane!! CRAP!! I am thinking TURBULANCE!! I HATE turbulance! I have hung on to many a stranger sitting next to me in a plane going through TURBULANCE! I wanted him to be on a BIG plane with WIDE aisles, lots of leg room, movies! Instead he is on a flippin CROP DUSTER!! I text back, "that is okay, it will be fun."
He texts again "there are some sketchy looking characters on this plan." CRAP!! Terrorists!! Dear Heaven he is on a crop duster with terrorists!!! I say more prayers, then text back "befriend them." He thought that was funny.
So, the last time I text him he didn't answer. He is in the sky. Way up high in the sky in a crop duster with potential terrorists! WITHOUT ME!!! He will call me when he lands in Denver where they switch planes and then he will call me when he gets to Vegas.
In the meantime, on my lunch hour I am going to go to Hobby Lobby and buy me some EXTRA STRENGTH BINDING TAPE cos' I am going to have to reinforce those apron strings.......
I do not do letting go....I'm against it......BIG TIME!
~~Update~~Seth has landed safely in Denver. They have an hour layover and then they will fly into Vegas ~ This has been a looooong morning for me! But he is safe :)
~~Another Update ~~ Seth is in Vegas..safe and sound :) Let the games begin! (He can't gamble, he's not 21)
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